Not going back

You left my heart in a desert

And I was addicted  to you

I was thirsty for love

And you chose

To punish me anyway.

I tormented myself wondering,

Why I was begging for love?

It wasn’t easy to walk

In the scorching desert.

I wanted to die and yet I survived.

Now you want me back in your life

To resurrect my wounds

And torment me with memories.

You pushed me too hard

I shall not beg anymore.

Do you still love who I am

Or you love what I have around me?

I cried countless nights for you

And you turned your back anyway.

I don’t want to torment myself anymore

And please stop following me around!

I don’t need a bodyguard.

I trust a pet than you.

I have no room for forgiveness.

Let it be known from today,

You are not invited

To any part of my life

Even on my future funeral.